Wonder acts

I was going to sleep on a certain night, when I saw Arch angel Rafael in the end my bed. He had no specific "shape", I just saw he's energy. (I just had read Lorna Byrne - Angels in my hair.) I asked Rafael that could i see angels like Lorna. He told me that I can't since I couldn't withstand all that light that comes from them but I could see them in my own way. I asked him to take a recognizable shape. Rafael became about 2 meters tall "see-through" man with wings. It was beautiful!

I admired him for a while, and asked if angels could do miracles "just like that." (This also happened after "the awakening", and my ego couldn't just let me believe everything.) He suggested me to close my eyes. I felt him coming closer to me. I don't know what Rafael did but when I opened my eyes, (I've had a really bad sight and I had to use glasses all my life) Now I saw without them! I could read and see all contours exactly. I thanked Rafael. He said "One day you are going to do these acts by yourself." And then he left.

I saw well only for couple days, but it was a valuable experience!

My first wonder act happened pretty quickly after that conversation. My friend was in a car crash and he became paralyzed. A couple months after that crash, my spirit guide woke me up in the middle of night and told me to go to that friend. I asked how on earth I could go there since it's 400 kilometers and in the middle of the night? Then I got out of my body. In less than a second I was right next to my friend. He was sleeping. My guide told me to give an energy healing to him. I did what I was told, and then returned to my own body.

Some time after that I heard that my paralyzed friend was able to move his limbs. I asked my guide that was it because of me and he said yes. I checked that also from Marko, since I couldn't believe that I did it. He also said yes.

Notification!

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Channeling

(I can't remember if this happened before or after the poltergeist) My friend came to visit us. We talked about spiritual world and I asked him that does he feel a cold spot in the right side of his body. He said yes. I saw his dead brother recline in him and I told him about that.

The brother wanted to show me things about his life. He showed me a bicycle, which he probably used a lot, a knife, which he used to stab someone.. I saw how they played football as kids and also his childhood's favourite toy. He showed me many things that were important for him, friends, girlfriend.
My friend's mother also came by. She had gone from this world also, and the cause of death was uncertain. She showed me how she died. I saw the place of death and the reason. I saw situations of her life. Kitchen's closets, she picked a knife and stabbed a man. This woman was guided by devils. I saw how devils told her to do other horrible things also.

Also a humanoid and a dark spirit arrived. This dark spirit had come so close to my friend that he even felt it physically. I prepared to drive it away, but for my relief it left by itself. The humanoid was just hanging around and watching. Few other spirits also visited, but they didn't say anything.

Poltergeist

Let's return back to an earlier happening.

The first time when I knew that I was meeting dark spirits was really teaching experience. We had a Poltergeist at home. I noticed it when I went to shower. We had a long brush hanging in the wall that always moved when I was in shower. I wondered that but let it be. When I came from shower, I drank coffee and put the coffee cup on the table. It started shaking and moving. Nothing else on the table didn't move except that cup. I tried to incite the spirit to lift up the cup. (It was dumb, but I didn't know that it was a dark spirit). The cup vibrated on the table for about 4 mins.

Well... I called Marko again. He told me that we had many dark spirits at home and also he told me that it was a poltergeist. For some reason I wasn't scared but I sure was excited! I wondered how much I could learn about it.

Spirits moved stuff all the day. In the evening when I went to sleep I told them to leave now. I told them that this is my home and I have already one kid messing up the house, so there's no need for them to increase the mess anymore. They got pissed off and started keeping noise. We have glassy vitrine doors that they were tinkling. It took me about 4 hours o make them leave.

Such spirits have been at our place often, but they couldn't make such noise for long. I've also received calls about haunted houses. I've been cleaning them then.

I don't mean scare anyone with this. Rather encourage to investigate own fears. Think about next questions. What are you afraid of? Why? What's so scary in it? How great control it has in your life or does it limit your life? How could you deal with that fear and be balanced with it?

Where are we now?

Now I'm going to write about the present. What am I doing these days? So I live in Oulu, I'm a house mom, but sometimes I rent a room in a shop and do readings about passed lives. I drive bad spirits away, heal with energy, read tarot readings, read dreams, I do channeling and study new techniques all the time. Marko has become my mentor and he is teaching me continuously.

I often get "tests" in my home, meaning that my guide opens the gates and I must deal with different situations. This is sometimes quite challenging, since someone may wake me up to ask for help during the night. I also help people in the need of help through phone or facebook. I'll try to write here about those happenings.

My uncle received a message, that was meant for me. I'm asking you to think about that text.

Be what you are not. Be afraid. Bravery takes the same power. The emotions you wear is the key, what you are going to do together.

Many channeled texts are like this. Have to think and try to understand the deeper meaning and purpose of the message.

First success

I visited a friend of mine. We drank coffee and talked, until I saw a young woman's spirit. She walked here and there and she looked nervous. She started knocking to get my attention. I thought that how could I help her since I don't understand what she wants. I started focusing anyway. She showed me how she died. She had been murdered. A man suffocated her with a pillow in that apartment, and now she couldn't get out by herself. I asked that if I could help her. She said yes and I helped her in the light. By then I didn´t know how I did it, probably spiritual world helped me. For the first time I managed to help a spirit by my self.

After few days I went to a sleepover in my father's place. We were going to sleep with my little sister and suddenly a spirit of a thirteen year old boy came next to me. He had made a suicide in that apartment. He used to hide into closet from a violent and alcoholic father. His mother died when he was younger. The boy was bullied and he couldn't take it anymore. He felt like not belonging anywhere. I guided him forwards.

My son was there also. He woke up around 5 o' clock to get a bottle of milk. I gave it to him and went back to sleep next to my sister. Her phone started to ring and she didn't wake up in that. I checked out who's the caller. Antton was the name that appeared in the screen. He called many times and I woke up my sister to answer him if there was an emergency. She just hanged up and kept on sleeping. In the morning I asked her who he was. She checked her phone records and there were no received calls. Her screen looked different than what I saw in the night. Also we couldn't find Antton from the name list. I asked Marko that what does this mean. The caller was that kid I guided into light. He wanted to thank me. I thanked Marko for his help and then we hanged up.

I felt really good since now I knew how to help them. That's what I do even nowadays.

Marko Pellikainen

I'll write a bit about about my uncle here. Marko is pretty known in Finnish spiritual groups.

Marko has been working about 20 years with spiritual world. Spirits guided him to shamanism and he thinks that it's natural for him to work with shaman techniques. They are familiar elements for him. He's also acting as a teacher and an example for me.

My and Marko's first meeting was 22.3.2012. Before that we had only talked through mobile phones. When  he came to Oulu, me and my relatives waited for him just like if we waited for Santa Claus as a kid. Marko taught us how to balance chakras, made shaman trips with us and opened gates to afterlife, where "already gone from this world" friends came to greet us. We received messages from them and everyone's feelings were quite emotional. Marko closed the gates and we started talking and asking him many questions that were puzzling our minds. I made an energy healing to Marko that day also.

At the end I want to tell you that everything we do with spiritual world is about techniques. Different situations have different techniques. That means that life is all about learning, studying and making.

Study

 When I started to see spirits, at the beginning I only saw their energy. At first I didn´t know if a spirit was a he or she, (spirits don´t have a gender, but they usually take the same shape what they looked like when they lived on the earth) or whatever shape they wanted. When I started to perceive their shapes, I had to do a lot of work to see what they looked like. Incrementally during the exercises I began to receive messages. They beginned to show me messages letter by letter, then sentences and nowadays I receive them as thoughts.

Before I got messages from the spirits (or being able to read), I often called my uncle Marko Pellikainen. He has helped me to progress on my path a lot and told me what the spirits have desired at each time. I thank Marko for all the help and patience!

Spirits have been visiting us often. They just didn't do anything but watching around and I didn't know what to do. I would have been completely lost if I didn't have Marko there helping me to understand that I am not crazy like I thought sometimes. In the beginning I doubted my own sanity. That probably happens to many when they are facing that moment, since they don't understand what's happening.
Once I went to sauna and there was a gnome sitting on the benches waiting for me. I really started to think about going to a state of mind analysis. But once again I decided to talk to my relatives first. Nowadays all this is normal and natural to me. And fear for all this is gone.

I hope that someone who reads this is facing this same situation and gets help and courage from this blog to come closer to the spiritual world. Towards the new!

Humanoid

I was going to sleep early one day. I spent the whole day doing energy healings and channelings and I was really tired. My son was already sleeping. Suddenly my son's toy box which had blocks inside started to move. A creature, which moved and watched it was looked really weird. I've never seen something like that before. It had a big head and long legs. I wondered a moment and asked him who he/she was. Humanoid said something with metallic voice and then he left. The creature gave me a feeling that it wasn´t "good" or "clean". Once again I called my uncle. He told me that it was a humanoid. 

I spent the next few days thinking about this.

I've never denied their existence, but I sure never believed in meeting one "Alien". They still visit me sometimes nowadays and I visit them with my spiritual body. A lot of people think that humanity is ahead in technology, but I disagree. They took me once into a "flying car". They showed me many kinds of things and were very friendly and they spoke English with me. Normally I am not good in English

Tarot reading and "Automatic writing"

Marko's wife Tuula made a tarot reading for me. It was the first touch to tarot, which I never before paid any attention. While I wrote a reading, a spirit took my hand and I started to "Automatically write". Same thing happened to my mother when she got a reading. Our handwritings changed completely and we wrote rally fast. Next text is a straight translate of what Tuula said and the spirit wrote. It was also hard to translate in Finnish and harder to English and the text had some typing errors.

Changes. Radical outer changes. Old relationships must be ended. Painful. I am ready to end a relationship. Off a thing. Set free. Some old clingy thing. Relationship will end no matter what. Later it will be more difficult. Binding negative life. No reason to hold on. Not now. Speak. Will turn better. Go through the hard way. let the past go. Break the old, physical and spiritual. There will always be new. I'm ready. Accept the consequences. Don't let the past rule, Accept the consequences. Painful things hurt. After that spiritual change, old thoughts go with the flow. Listen to your heart, inner guide. Feels like no one supports and a need for help. Distress. Make your own solutions, then happens. Don't cling in anyone, not right. Heart knows. Hanging in a situation without the ability to live fully. Throw yourself in without knowing. More pain if clinging, self torment. When you let go there's no fear, towards the new.

Mostly when I do automatic writing, the sentences are mixed, some letters are upside down or missing.  I used to write a lot in automatic writing, but not that much anymore.

First lesson

After the "awakening" I read a book called "Matka yli ymmärryksen" (A journey over understanding) written by Heikki Saureen. (It's written in Finnish language and there's also a chapter about my uncle Marko Pellikainen). I was listening to music and I heard uncertain whispering through the music. I couldn't understand it. Later I found out that my guide tried to talk with me. That was the first time when I heard a voice from the spiritual world.

Still I kept reading reading the book. After a while of the whisper I turned my attention to our front door. It sounded like if someone was trying to get in with a key. At first I thought it was my boyfriend, but no one opened the door. Just tinkled the keys against the lock. A bright light shined through the peephole. I didn't pay much attention into it and I kept reading. Obviously the spirit tried to be polite while trying to get in "with a permission" but since no permission wasn't given, it left. I don't know how reading the book affected in all the happenings. I felt cold air next to me. I put my hand into it and it started to heat up. My fear of spiritual world was gone.

I called Marko again in the evening. I told him what had happened. and that I saw energy balls everywhere. He taught me my first lesson then. He taught me to do energy healings. My uncle also told me that I was a healer witch in my previous life and I did channelings at the same time. A lot of people came to see me even from very long distance. Word of me and my doings spread far away. Im receiving these taughts into this life also.
I completed an exercise given by Marko. I saw how energy went through my body. I saw the energy of my guide. From that moment I've been doing energy healings.

Dreams

I see a lot of dreams. I even wake up in the middle of the night to read them, so I could remember them in the morning.

I've received teachings and knowledge from previous lives such as dream reading. Dreams always offer hints. For example how should I deal with a certain situation? Is there some unsolved thing that needs to be solved? Or just re-think the happenings of the day. You should read them carefully. I've been writing a notebook of my dreams and I suggest others to do so too.

Mostly the dreams that I see a relatively easy to understand for the messages are quite straight and simple to read.

For example: In the beginning of "The awakening" I saw a dream where I had a list of every person I know in front of me. I checked their names one by one with my guide. We considered which relationships I should end and which one's should I treasure more. The list was long and I can't remember anymore which names I had to "rule out". I woke up as I was just talking with my guide.

By that time my guide was a dark haired woman from Paris. She was very beautiful and she was wearing a white dress. Her name was Icon. She had gone away from this world somewhere around 19th century and she was about 30 years old. Icon suggested me to start painting or writing poems. She gave me a pen and some paper. (This is what my uncle Marko Pellikainen told me 'cause I didn't yet have the ability to communicate with spirits).
From the request of my guide I decided to buy paints, brushes and paper. I highly doubt that if it works, since I've never been good at drawing or painting. But! I painted a really beautiful butterfly in a fine background. I adored it. It was beautiful. I think that the spiritual world assisted me to create it. I wrote poems also, but they were not as "amazing" as I was told.

Awakening

Like I wrote previously, I have seen and experienced things through my whole life. With awakening I mean the moment that got me working actively with spiritual world. That moment happened when I moved to our first apartment with my boyfriend.

Things just started to happen from the beginning. Tv turned on without no one around, oven's hatch was opened and closed with a slam, I heard knocking and some stuff just moved around on it's own. Once we had an evening meeting with our friends at our place. We were just talking and having fun until something got my attention. I got frightened. I saw a black shadow on our toilets door with three bobbles on it's head. That's when I called my uncle for the first time. (When I was a kid, my mom had told me that my uncle works as a shaman. She was really scared about that kind of stuff. We were not allowed to talk about spiritual world or the uncle at home. She was afraid of keeping contact with her brother. Me and my sister saw our uncle only few times when we were very young) I decided to call to the uncle. He answered as if we had always known each other. We talked about things until I had the courage to ask if he saw anything in our apartment. He told me that a young girl had died in here. Her name was Annamari. She asked me to help her to get to the light. My grandmother and friends who had left from this world visited us there. For some reason I was not afraid. My uncle asked me to lie down, so he could clean me and the apartment from the spirits and unclean energies. He told me that the healing lasts for about half an hour. The man that I saw in the door was so called "moth" who also left during that cleaning. That's when I saw energies for the first time with my own eyes, and I hadn't even thought about being able to see such things. I saw how the energies just went through my body and walls. It was a wonderful experience.

As my uncle made me that long distance healing, I heard for the first time about spiritual healing. I doubted that it would work. "How could anyone across the country know where I needed a healing?". But during the healing I felt something pulling my legs. Like a twitch. I felt cold and warm spots in my body, just like someone would have occasionally touched my leg. After that healing I got so relaxed that I could fall asleep. Then uncle called on the phone "Half an hour has gone, how do you feel?" I was confused since it felt like only ten minutes. I thanked him and told him that I am very relaxed and feeling very light. Then he asked if I felt a powerful twitch. I wondered how did he know that? With a laugh he told me that he was sitting right next to me during the healing. He took a sticker spirit off me, which was stuck in me pretty tight. It was some old man who had been working for his entire life as a carpenter and he smoked a lot of cigarettes. (Sometimes I even smelled the wood and cigarette at home). We ended the phone conversation and I was left on thinking about all that had happened.

How it all began?

I have been writing this blog in Finnish for a long time and we have been asked to translate it in English also so that we could help more people around the world and share more information.

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I decided to start writing a blog about my spiritual path. About everything I have experienced, what I've seen or done. Hopefully this blog could be give help for people in need or just gives you a subject to think about.

So... How it all began? I've experienced "paranormal" things and happenings through my whole life. I remember as a kid when I went to sleep and I started to hear guitar playing and voice of a singing man.
My little sister heard it too. When we told about this "musician" to our mom, and asked her to try to hear it, she couldn't hear anything. Ever. It lasted for many years. With time I got used to it. Even tough no one else didn't hear it, I didn't think of it as an abnormal or weird. It took me several years to understand what was really going on.

Almost every relative from my mothers side have been spiritual; Healers, seers, dream seers, and a shaman. My family has been very supportive and their help on this spiritual path has been priceless and I am very thankful for them. Especially for my uncle, who is a lot more experienced shaman. He helped me to start my own path and taught me how to communicate with my guide and other spiritual beings. He taught me how to learn to use my own inner powers as a seer and a healer.

But who am I? I'm not yet sure of that myself either. All I know is that I`m an old soul in a body of a young woman from Northern Finland. I work as a healer and a seer. I do all kind of readings, i guide spirits, do energy healings and all kind of jobs that spiritual world gives me. I want to tell about my work and development to as many people as possible. I hope my blog provokes questions and thoughts, which could lead you to understand yourself and the wonders of the universe.